Thoughts on Happiness
I've briefly mentioned in past posts that I suffer from depression due to the medicine I take. Recently, it has really been getting the best of me and I basically just feel like laying there staring at the wall all day. It's a feeling I've become used to, but hoped I would never get this used to it. For a while, I couldn't even remember the last time I had a "good day." Finally! The other day, I started to feel like myself again and actually had a GREAT day... for the first time in what feels like ages.
So I thought today I would share a little about that, my thoughts on happiness, and what that means for Noodoso (only good things, I promise!).
I think it's so important for people to have something they enjoy doing completely and totally because they want to do it. It's not a chore, it's not for work, it's something that is only for them and they love it. Well, for a long time, that was blogging for me. I loved it more than anything and basically thought about it 24/7. Don't get me wrong, I still love blogging SO much, but there came a point where it became more of a chore than an enjoyment. I narrowed my focus because it's what I thought I needed to do, and ultimately, limited myself to posting only certain things.
So instead of making it fun again, I started putting blog work off, posting less and less, and basically lost all my creativity. Then, after a short break things started coming into perspective for me.
I've learned that the thing that makes you happiest, really has to be the thing that makes YOU happy - no one else. If you do things that make other people happy, thinking it will make you look good and will make you happy ... you're wrong. Sorry. Save yourself the wasted time!
Basically, I finally decided to embrace the things that really make me happy, start sharing them with people, and doing them for myself. I love paper products and planners, so I've picked up my love for them and started running with it. I love designing weekly layouts and organizing/decorating them to match my mood that week, I love making mini scrapbooks of the happy moments in my life, and I love writing about the things that make me happy. I know, I know - planning and decorating your planner is nerdy (I've heard that a lot) - but recently, it's become more and more popular and I've found people like me that enjoy it as well! Surprise! (If you're into that sort of thing, you can follow along with me here. If not, that's cool too!)
Basically, this post is messy and all over the place to tell you one thing - make yourself happy. Put your happiness first. Even if that means doing something that other people think is weird, your friends don't like, your significant other doesn't understand, etc. If it makes you happy, DO IT! Everyone else will go with it when they see that you're happy. I promise.
I'm carrying that same ideal into my blogging (and all other aspects of life, really). I will admit, I got lost in the hype of blogging for a little bit which led me to a great deal of unhappiness. Going forward, I am ditching the "focus" of Noodoso and reverting back to a true lifestyle blog. Writing about the things that make me smile - all the things, not just three categories - is what made me love blogging in the first place. So, I'm embracing that!
I've noticed that the more I embrace these things and start to focus on myself again, the less I focus on the depression, and the better I feel about myself and everything/everyone around me.
I'm not sure if any of this even makes sense, but I hope you'll continue to love Noodoso as much as you did before because I have fun and exciting things in store this year! Real, authentic, makes me happy, lifestyle content. YAY!