Thursday Thoughts | Post-Graduation Depression?
So usually, I share a Thursday Thoughts post with my favorite links, reads, and other goodies from throughout the week. But this week, I am going to share something a little different. It's been a rough week here for me, and I wanted to share a few thoughts with you on a specific topic.
In just a few days, I will have been a college graduate for an entire month. That month flew by! I'll start off by explaining life pre-graduation. For the past five years, I went to school full time, worked full time (sometimes working multiple jobs at once), blogged, owned small businesses, traveled, and managed to maintain somewhat of a social life (if you could call it that). I averaged 4-5 hours of sleep each night and barely had a free moment in the day to even breathe. It sounds rough, and at times it was, but I feel like my truest self when I am under crazy pressure and have a mile long to-do list.
The whole time I was in school though, I was counting down the days until graduation. I worked it up the be a huge life-changing event that would be so exciting I would never forget it. And while yes, I had an incredible last week (even month) of school with some of my absolute favorite people, it didn't turn out to be what I expected.
For the first three weeks after graduation, I was traveling, moving, etc. Staying constantly busy, I just assumed that the whole "I'M DONE!!!" thing hadn't really sunk in. Now, I'm starting to wonder if there is such thing as post-graduation depression. The whole event was so anticlimactic that I am left feeling a bit bummed about the whole thing. I feel like I have so much free time on my hands and yet not enough hours in the day. At the same time, if I spend longer than 10 minutes relaxing and doing nothing, I feel guilty/ashamed and feel like I must find something to do. It's the strangest and emptiest feeling (hard to explain), but I really just feel sad. And still, it hasn't really hit me yet I guess. Will it? Or did I miss that part? Either way, it just wasn't was I was expecting... at all. And quite honestly, I am really bummed about it.
What are your thoughts on this? Have you experienced a similar situation?
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